Saturday, May 19, 2012

Moments That Matter

What I like to eat - not what I should eat

We all have moments of discouragement or weakness.  What’s important is to not let these moments distract us from the most important parts of life.  I find myself faced with my weaknesses every step of the way while training for this marathon.  Dang, it’s hard to get out and run almost every day.  Especially when you are like me and love the sedentary lifestyle.  I’ll admit it.  My idea of the ideal day is to stay at home with Alex reading a good book, playing computer games, going out to eat (cooking healthy food? What?), and watching a movie.  That’s not really conducive to getting in shape for running 26.2 miles.  

My new shoes
I’ve got the shoes.  I’m slowly investing in trendy running gear.  I even have a whole Costco case of the blue variety Gatorade.  Mmmm.  I have an awesome team cheering me on.  Actually, I have two awesome teams cheering me on.  Team in Training and Gordon’s Running Dork Squad (my family team that was created for those of us specifically running for my uncle Gordon – for his story go here.)  What amazing people, all running for a common cause – to wipe out cancer! The strongest reasons in the world propel me forward – Gordon and Jamie (her story is here).  Yet, getting up and going out to run every day seems to be the hardest thing in the world for me right now.  Well, until today.

I’ve had a terrible case of the “blahs”.  I’ve been listening to my family members talk about how motivated they are and how well they are doing with their running/walking and I’ve been feeling really discouraged about my lack of anything even remotely resembling motivation.  Yes, that’s terrible.  I probably shouldn’t admit it out in public, and yet, I think it’s important to realize that no matter how important something is and how close it is to your heart and even how much steam you had running behind you at the start, there may come moments (and there probably will) when your physical, mental, emotional strength will fail you and you want to quit.  

Here I am, looking at this HUGE goal and thinking “What have I done?” and suddenly feeling the very overwhelmingness of it all.  (The dictionary just told me “overwhelmingness” isn’t a word, but I think it should be. All good authors make up their own words.  I’m just getting a head start.) Let’s just say I’ve had a lot of "moments" lately.

Then this morning happened.  I have known for a few days now that I needed something to get me back on track.  This morning was our second official run with the TNT team.  I had my uncle Brian next to me (Gordon’s brother), keeping pace with me, as we tried to match running and walking with the gals around us.  It was hard! I had to work hard to keep going.  But I felt so good when it was over! And I finally feel like I have my spark back.  Honestly, it was only 3 ½ miles. (Should I even admit that?) We weren’t very fast.  But, I have 5 more months to work up to 26.2 miles.  From here on out, I am in all the way!  

Like I said, we all have ups and downs, but it’s all up from here.  

Writing my blog helps to keep me motivated and excited, so hopefully you will be hearing more from me as the season progresses.  Plus, I will be trying to put together some fun incentives for my fundraising.  When you donate to my fundraising efforts you are helping to save lives  (and cheering me on!)  Every donation helps.

You can donate to my efforts online here:
 or you can donate to my team (Gordon's Running Dork Squad) here:

You can learn more about LLS here: The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society® - Official Website

You can learn more about TNT here: Team In Training - Together We Train to Beat Cancer

1 comment:

  1. Good job, celebrating your successes and not focusing on the setbacks.